在报章上读到有关陈医生（槟城中央医院的麻醉师）的逝世,着实有些吃惊。原来还有人和我一样有动静脉畸型，同样在三十七岁时病发。差别在于她先有症状, 视线模糊去检查后得知，然后到国外去医治。医治后反而病发身亡，而我却是在毫无预兆下畸型的动静脉破裂导至左半身至今依然不灵活。
When I read about the news of Dr. Tan’s (an anesthetist in Penang General Hospital) death, I really shocked. Found someone like me, with AVM, (Arterious Venous Mal-formation) and ruptured at the age of 37.
The difference is she noticed the AVM because of her eye vision blurred. The AVM ruptured after her treatment in France. My AVM ruptured without any sign and cause me left sight weak even after a couple of years.
我真的比她幸运吗?我病发后至今依然活着，而她早已离开了人间。但也可以说她较幸运，病发后不必承受任何痛苦和担忧，就这样两脚一伸，什么也不必管。而我至今依然要努力奋斗，只要稍微偷懒，马上就全身疼痛。除了身体，有时还要考验精神上的耐力。
Am I really lucky? After the AVM ruptured, I still alive whereas she past away 2 years ago. But sometimes I feel that she is lucky because she did not need to struggler and worried. I have to work really hard every single day, whenever I was lazy my muscles will become tighten and I could feel the pain. This is a tough game for me and this is testing my patient.
但有时候会想就算今天的我依然正常，不也一样必须面对生活中的种种，只能说是上天给我一个机会看着我的孩子健康成长，让我们有一个健全和幸福的家庭。所以终于接受了医生及护士们常说的一句话：你很幸运因为你还活着。
But when I think twice, if I was normal as before, I still have to face a lot of problem in daily life. I had given another chance to accompany my children and form a happy family. Now I really believed in what the doctors and nurses told me: You are lucky because you are alive.
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