你痊愈了 You are cured

‘你痊愈了’这应该是每一个生病的人最期待听到的话。很幸运地今年的六月三日（零九年,中风后的三年半），在每年的定期检查后，医生对我也说了这么一句话:“ 你痊愈了!可以不用复症了!”
Every patient will be so keen waiting for the words ‘You are cured’ from the doctor. I was lucky to hear that from my neurosurgeon on 3rd June 2009 during my yearly checkup. (that was after my stroke for three and a half year)

但是这对我来说只是激起了一丝的快乐,因为我不必再到来扫描了.随伴而来的却是浓郁的失落感.怎么说呢? 我想这应该也是中风族的无奈. 医生只成功把脑里的动静脉异型给解决掉,至于中风后所留下的一切后遗症,一概没有答案.像我: 至今依然脚步缓慢, 偶尔还会失去平衡
However my happiness doesn’t last for long. I think that is a common experience for a stroke patient. The disappointment due to that’s nothing a doctor can do to help or promise that a stroke patient will become normal. The words ‘you are cured’ mean that I don’t have to do my yearly angiogram due to my AVM but not my condition. After three and a half years of struggle, I still walked slow, sometimes even out of balance. My muscle still tight especially my leg and all this disturb my life.

但回头一想:我還是应该感恩!首先网上的报告显示, 不少像我这类的病例, 动静脉异型经过电疗不但没有缩小, 反而扩大. 我已经算是非常幸运了.我已赚到了三年半的时间,肯定还有更长的时间.家里人的感情融洽.从此,带着两个孩子到首都不用躲在酒店里等我到医院扫描,可以轻轻松松地当个游客.不用每天担心那动静脉异型什么时候会再次破裂.可以更积极地面对未来的每一天.我非常感谢家里每一个人的谅解及包容.
Anyhow I think I should appreciate on what I had. Report shows that some of the cases after doing the XRS, the AVM diameters growing so their conditions become worse. After all I was lucky enough to earn three and a half years. I am so sure that I will many more years to accompany my family. My poor children don’t have to stay at the hotel waiting for me to do my angiogram. We can become a visitor; visit our capital – Kuala Lumpur together. I don’t have to worry when my AVM will burst again. I can face my future in a relax and confidence situation. I thanks for everyone that are so patient with me.